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Is it fair?

So, is it fair that I so sporadically post here? Some of you are so very loyal. I really should be loyal in return. I don’t get around to read other blogs as much as I perhaps should … though, I DO every once in a while. And, when I do, I tend to read several posts at a time. And, of course, I’m also so pleased friends and family pop in to see what’s up around our “campfire”. Please excuse this one not-so-positive post.

clouds over the Salish Sea

I’m recently home from a week-long vacation that was gifted to us. A dear dear friend knew I had been pining since the loss of yet another of our dogs. He felt it would do us good to get away. It did, in a way. But back home, I’m so close to tears all the time. And at times, I just can’t hold them back. I miss them so much. I hope I did well by them in their final days.

near the end www.dianeschuller.com

I also have a difficult time picking up the camera as I used to. This has been ongoing for months really, but especially since the last of our beloved canine family members has gone. So, I’ll at least leave you with a photo or two, but they will be something from before. I will attempt to post an upbeat and photo-filled post soon. Excuse this temporary (I hope) dip in enthusiasm.

Pearl, Australian Shepherd www.dianeschuller.com

Oh, oh … to leave you with something positive. I just read a really wonderful novel, The Orchardist. A great story, lovely writing, and definitely recommended.

sticky toffee pudding cake by Diane Schuller

 

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Gabriele - October 15, 2015 - 9:54 am

I love reading your posts. I’m so sorry those beautiful dogs are not around.

Bridie - October 15, 2015 - 4:04 pm

Be gentle with yourself, Diane. Grief takes a lot out of a person, and loses such as these take a long time to heal. Be assured that this reader has no expectations of either regular or upbeat posts; I will be here to read whatever you are moved to write, whenever you are moved to write it. Take good care.

Sherry - October 15, 2015 - 5:07 pm

I so agree with Bridie. I totally understand why you are feeling the way that you do — and I would be too. Please let yourself grieve in the way that you need to. You have sustained major losses of loved family members and life is not the same without them. Post when you want to, take pics when you are moved to, read and knit and bake and take walks and do what makes you feel better. I have a somewhat erratic approach to posting myself and I just allow myself to do it that way. We love what you have to offer and we feel for you. xox

Candace - October 17, 2015 - 10:04 am

And I agree with Gabriele, Bridie, and Sherry. Don’t feel obligated to do something you’re not feeling. Animals are as much a part of our lives as people.

Lisa Gordon - October 17, 2015 - 2:29 pm

Diane, I know how very much this hurts. A couple of years ago, we lost all 4 of our dogs in less than a year. They become such a part of our family, and have such a big place in our hearts. It takes time. For me, a very, long time. Give yourself that time, my friend. xo.

Mary - October 18, 2015 - 7:03 am

Dianne,

I am so sorry to read about the deaths of your beloved dogs. I echo the words of the others who have left comments and send you this poem that made me feel better when I my beautiful old cat died.

Though we need to weep your loss
You dwell in that safe place in our hearts
Where no storm or night or pain can reach
You placed smiles like flowers
On the alter of our minds
And you found for us a new music
That brightened every day.

Rest in peace dear Pearl and Austin. We love you.

Jessie - October 21, 2015 - 11:03 am

Fairness, as usual, has nothing to do with it- any of it.

Your posts are treasures whenever and however often they come.

But perhaps, if it’s bothering you, you could tell us more about that cake to make up for it! 😉

Susan - October 22, 2015 - 5:52 pm

I’m so sorry, Diane, it’s so hard, isn’t it? Your dogs were so lucky to have you and I have not doubt you gave them both a wonderful life, filled with lots of love. Grieving is necessary and can’t be rushed. And it’s ok to cry.

shawna - October 26, 2015 - 2:09 pm

What lucky creatures to have had you in their lives.